First off, I live by the name of Chatur Villarta. I prefer to be called Bhem. 
It's a made-up name by the way and I like it. I'm 34, and I'm single but I have someone that cause my hear to beat every now and then. The love of my life. In short, the boyfriend of 8 years. 

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Aside from reading I also like to write. No wonder I have this online journal. 
But I'm not going to showcase how bad I am as a writer, rather let people know my story. 

A little more about me? I'm a crybaby and super sensitive - if there is another word for that. I'm expressive, sweet and moody.  A traditional trait of a Cancerian. I am also a creative kind of person, who loves stationeries and a movie junkie. 

 

Here goes the special part of my story... 

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The year 2013 - October, I was diagnosed with having a Kidney Disease End Stage and undergone Hemodialysis. The doctor said the only way for me to go back to my normal self is to have a Kidney transplant. Of course, who doesn't want to be okay but the problem I am having is lack of finances to build. I don't have a job at the moment and I only rely at the moment on the boyfriend. 

 

How did I get the disease? 
When the Doctor further ran a test on me. He said, that I already have an anomalous size kidneys. That is why at an early age it shows not functional anymore plus the standard living I have way back 4 years ago. Then, also last year. My Mother was also diagnosed of having a Severe anemia that causes her kidney to collapse and went to Dialysis as well. So that makes us genetic, meaning it can also happen to my siblings or their kids - which I don't want to happen. 

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How did I overcome this? 
To be honest, it took me 2 years overcoming this sickness. As if I have a choice. Actually, I do have. I overcome it by accepting the sickness, the treatment and the medicines I take and most importantly the prayers I have every day. A support group from the center helps me as well. By talking to them, joining some activities. 

 

How is the treatment? 
So far, I overcome the pain of the needle every session although it still hurting me. After the session, I will be okay and active once again. 

Is it hard to face this kind of unfortunate life? 
Unfortunate for some people maybe, but for us who are still battling to survive is a blessing. Why? Because we know God has never forsaken us. He still gave us days to make it up to the lives we have in the past. God's loves us I believe.

 

Are there changes in your physical self?
Yes, there are lots of things changes in me. First is my skin tone, it's getting darker now. My weight, I sometimes lose weight. My movement, it's not that fast anymore. The way I walk, sometimes I'm at a low pace. Then we have issues with our breathing. Some of us are losing hair. 

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What causes this sickness? 
There are a lot of factors that will affect the work of our kidneys. 
Actually, you can search for that. But I will tell you base on my experience if that will help. First is your Blood Pressure, it will cause a big part. If you have a high blood pressure meaning your kidneys are having a hard time pumping. Second is if you are diabetic, another factor for your kidneys to get weak because of high glucose in your body. The third is anemia, if you are lack of Hemoglobin in your body, the kidney will go ballistic and can circulate the blood supply around your body. 

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Is there a way to prevent this kind of sickness? 
Of course, there is. Proper diet on eating healthy foods. You know what I mean. Just be healthy. Drink occasionally quit smoking, refrain from taking colas, less the salty food and the fatty foods, regular check-up will do and exercise. The healthy living is a must to have good and long lasting kidneys. 

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Well, I guess that's it. 

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More about me on my blog. 

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Thanks for reading.